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Valentine by Melian-Alcarime Valentine :iconmelian-alcarime:Melian-Alcarime 2 0 Nozomi by Melian-Alcarime Nozomi :iconmelian-alcarime:Melian-Alcarime 1 2 Lex's Malon! by Melian-Alcarime Lex's Malon! :iconmelian-alcarime:Melian-Alcarime 2 5 Cecelia, soul-caller by Melian-Alcarime Cecelia, soul-caller :iconmelian-alcarime:Melian-Alcarime 5 8 Liramier napping by Melian-Alcarime Liramier napping :iconmelian-alcarime:Melian-Alcarime 2 4 Violet, not purple! by Melian-Alcarime Violet, not purple! :iconmelian-alcarime:Melian-Alcarime 3 5 Konoye, the quiet one by Melian-Alcarime Konoye, the quiet one :iconmelian-alcarime:Melian-Alcarime 2 0 Rin again by Melian-Alcarime Rin again :iconmelian-alcarime:Melian-Alcarime 0 0 Margaery - Tooled by Melian-Alcarime Margaery - Tooled :iconmelian-alcarime:Melian-Alcarime 1 0 Cera in green by Melian-Alcarime Cera in green :iconmelian-alcarime:Melian-Alcarime 2 0 Tale of the Bamboo Cutter by Melian-Alcarime Tale of the Bamboo Cutter :iconmelian-alcarime:Melian-Alcarime 1 4 Static Shock by Melian-Alcarime Static Shock :iconmelian-alcarime:Melian-Alcarime 4 2 Ranjura - gift for Stormnicki by Melian-Alcarime Ranjura - gift for Stormnicki :iconmelian-alcarime:Melian-Alcarime 1 0 A Formal Affair by Melian-Alcarime A Formal Affair :iconmelian-alcarime:Melian-Alcarime 9 2 Wet Look by Melian-Alcarime Wet Look :iconmelian-alcarime:Melian-Alcarime 2 4 GloomyCherub's Palette Contest by Melian-Alcarime GloomyCherub's Palette Contest :iconmelian-alcarime:Melian-Alcarime 4 5

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Melian-Alcarime:iconmelian-alcarime:
i understood every word of it :D
Sat Oct 15, 2005, 5:54 PM
Wyandotte:iconwyandotte:
have fun reading my book of a post! :D
Tue Oct 11, 2005, 4:42 PM
bam-bam-989:iconbam-bam-989:
:analprobe: MR. NIESE!! :stupid:
Wed Oct 5, 2005, 9:35 AM
Wyandotte:iconwyandotte:
meep! yay for Gillay Willay!
Sun Oct 2, 2005, 10:29 AM
Melian-Alcarime:iconmelian-alcarime:
:poke:
Sun Oct 2, 2005, 7:30 AM
Melian-Alcarime:iconmelian-alcarime:
i have a shoutbox! SQUEEE!!!
Thu Sep 29, 2005, 9:33 AM
Nobody
It's hard to admit when you've made a mistake, and what you thought was certain... was not. When the ground you've been jumping for joy on crumbles away and leaves you falling. That's why I haven't updated my journal since the last entry, though I've continued to submit artwork.

The big thing that I thought was happening:
Zak and I purchased a 52 acre hayfield that was going to be our farm. The reality: the sellers accepted the offer, and then our funding (his family's trust) backed out for reasons I still don't fully understand. For nearly two weeks, I just couldn't stop crying. Every time I thought about it, I'd fall apart again. It wasn't just losing the land. It was accepting what I now have come to terms with as my reality. I cannot be a farmer. Anyone who has followed me knows I've cycled through dreams, and had to give up on each in turn.

I'm 25 now, and working a small fiber farm/CSA in Maine as my full-time job was my last one. I was sure that it had to be attainable. Certainly more attainable than the past attempts. My apprenticeship falling through was a difficult blow to take. I applied to 12 farms, and was rejected by all 12. One of them strung me along for months before finally pulling the plug. Then we found this land. Centrally located to all the major population centers, on a well-maintained road, working hayfield for 80+ years, and the money from hay sold would have paid the mortgage without any additional input from Zak and I. We made plans for over a month. We drafted proposals, crunched numbers, obtained financing from his family's trust, put down earnest money, made an offer, and were accepted. It was ours. We had even looked at modular homes and were getting quotes.

Then suddenly, the trust backed out. A town official said the land was appraised at less than we would be purchasing it for (town appraisal), and since the plan was based on us starting out with equity, we were shot down. Everyone keeps saying not to give up, and I get tired of explaining why. In order for us to buy a farm, it has to: be centrally located, have built-in equity, already be generating enough money through hay sales to pay for itself and the house, be able to sit on the market for over a month while the trust dicks around deciding. That's not possible. 

Zak proposed. It's probably the only thing keeping me from totally falling apart, well, that and the supportive dolling community. Call me a weak millennial or whatever you'd like, but I was a good girl and stayed out of trouble specifically so that I could accomplish my dreams. I focused on building productive skills instead of relationships or crimes, totally ignoring the possibility of a social life so that I wouldn't be tempted like my siblings. Then losing dream after dream, finally grasping at one that had to be attainable since the profession is paid peanuts and watching that too slip away... it's more than a punch in the gut; it's a bullet in the head. But the realities of the proposal, too, are starting to set in. We don't really live in a world anymore where a man can work full-time while his wife works part-time and takes care of the home. At least, not and buy a house with some land. I refuse to be caught in the rent trap. I'd rather die, and that's the truth. 

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Valentine
This is for catbreath over at Subeta, of her character, Valentine. I wasn't sure how the draping of the translucent robe was going to go, but it seems to be okay. The hair still feels off to me, though. 

The base is by Esoterically
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Nozomi
Made for Serene over at Subeta. That staff was a pain in the tuckus (okay, everything was a pain in the tuckus) but I think it came out okay. It's very outside my usual style, but I'm trying to branch out a bit.

The base is by laisdossin
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Lex's Malon!
As a thank you for both being cool and dolling my Gil, I made a doll of Qweia's Malon Manahan! She's part of a mob family, and while she seems friendly she gives off the impression that she's laughing at you rather than with you. :D

The base is by DHF, which is no longer online.
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Cecelia, soul-caller
Remember this lady? 
Cecelia by Melian-Alcarime

This is also Cecelia, in her more formal garb (preferred by her husband, Shirai) as she works. She still hates clothes though, so there's quite a lot of bare skin and nearly-bare skin.

I am more proud of this than I probably should be, and I'll likely end up hating it by the end of the year, but... I love how this came out. Everything seems to work together, including the two layers of translucent fabric. The second layer is the back of the gown, and covers the back of her legs and some of her shoes. 

However, I am accepting (and encouraging) constructive criticism. It helps me improve!

The base is by Sheeyo of Ever Falling Leaves, which is now offline like so many of our old favorites.
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Liramier napping
Hello, my dear friends! Here we have another doll of Liramier, sleeping with what is left of her snack (dangerous... she could totally knock over that milk, or lose the cookie to Meep). This one was a total pain in the butt, so I am requesting critique. It took me aaaages to draw and color the pattern, and I'm still not sure if the outline on the pj pants helps or hurts. They're supposed to be those fuzzy, warm pj pants. The top is one of those super-short-sleeved turtleneck sweaters. 

The base is by Appledore Isle, which is no longer online. 
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AriaThordia Featured By Owner 6 days ago  Hobbyist General Artist
:iconthanksforthe01plz::iconthanksforthe02plz::iconthanksforthe03plz::iconthanksforthe05plz:
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Melian-Alcarime Featured By Owner 6 days ago  Hobbyist General Artist
Right back at ya!
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AriaThordia Featured By Owner 6 days ago  Hobbyist General Artist
;)
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LadyLinnah Featured By Owner Jul 20, 2017  Hobbyist General Artist
Thanks for the +Watch! :)
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Melian-Alcarime Featured By Owner Jul 20, 2017  Hobbyist General Artist
You're very welcome! :D
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